"we are grown ups. when did this happen and how do we make it stop?"

life on the fast lane...

no, thats not how i am living my life.. well, not in the usual sense of partying, drinking ans sex. i mean, dont get me wrong, there is partying and drinking going on, but thats about it, and not in excess. after all, for someone who works seven days a week carrying on a wild social life is pretty much of the question. but i am living in the fast lane when it comes to the fact that although i have a college degree, somehow i have chosen to work dead end jobs. some may say it is because the job market is rough, or something equally sensible. not me, i know the truth. i choose to do this to myself because apparently i am afraid of growing up. i do not want the responsibilities and to top it all, i have chosen a major, spent 5 years in school for it, graduated, and now... well now i think eh, maybe this is not for me. yea, i know, i am right there with you, "what the fuck?! 5 yrs later you decide you dont like it." yes my friends. try telling that to a latin family where most people have college degrees and are working in their fields. yeah.. good luck with that. but how do i translate the fact that i am going through a 'quarter life crisis'. nevermind the fact alone that ive lived a quarter of my life freaks me out enough, now trying to tell that to my matriarcal family, yeah i think ill pass. so i do the only smart thing to do. i move out. did i mention that i dont really have a steady job and dont know what to do with my life. yeah. good times. i am living in the fast lane, hopefully ill stay on track to whereever it is that i am supposed to be going to. or at least enjoy the ride, afterall, isnt that what life is about? enjoying the ride...